It's Not Supposed To Be ...

... Me!

I am not the one who is supposed to be doing this.

I am not the one who went to seminary.

I am not a minister.

Why would he announce that he will still be our pastor and yet shirk ALL of his worship responsibilities? Why did I feel obligated to step in and come up with the services? 

I can't do this!! It is too hard!! It is beyond my capabilities!!

I am tired...

And I am spent...

There is nothing left within me...

I just want to crawl into bed, pull the covers, and cry.