Things I keep in me:
1.
Look at me from all angles,
I am a person composed entirely
of a turned-away back.
What shape is a heart? It is
the roundness of shoulders,
the scapula's heavy curve.
2.
I do not want. Full stop. Things
happen to me, are done
to me. Passively, I am defined. Passively,
I am worn. Passively, I am soothed.
I don't remember what desire means. I do not have
the desire to remember.
3.
Long hours replace long hours. Nothing
gets done. Long hours find me thinking
of long hours, ad infinitum. I have come to know
such a circling world. I have come to know
the damning pressure.
4.
So it is that repetition suits me.
5.
I spend a great deal of time sleeping.
Just that. Motionless, breathing
only lightly. I clench my teeth
till my jaw stiffens.
6.
And I wake up, again and again. I am
always asleep. I am always
waking up in order
to sleep.
Friday, June 24, 2011
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- meMonica
- I've been told that I am a pessimistic optimist who looks at the worst first but sees the hope always. I'm extremely dichotomous and ridiculously prejudiced. I love laughing though I never get the joke. I love watching the leaves dancing on the trees in the breeze, the clouds roll by through a deep blue sky and the stars twinkle at night. I am governed by the moon. I was dropped off, left under a rock in the New Mexico desert one dark night by the mother ship and I am anxiously awaiting my ride home - whatever planet that may be. The curious thing - my friends all agree.
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Sometimes we all want to try to sleep through those things we don't want to deal with but I think sometimes a little spark starts to burn and slowly we wake up when we have the strength to deal with things even if we believe we don't.
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