Contemporary Stations - Station Four, Denied by Peter

I cannot imagine how difficult it must have been for Christ to walk his last week of life knowing that he was to be betrayed by someone close to him, condemned by priestly authorities, and denied by Peter, his right-hand man. How, Lord Jesus, were you able to sustain yourself physically, emotionally, spiritually?

You were betrayed and taken before the courts of the Sanhedrin where you were condemned - guilty with no chance of being proven innocent; yet the most grievous injury had to be the denial by Peter. Peter was the natural leader of the disciples, your chosen twelve who were your ever present and constant companions for three years. With Peter's denial came the rejection and denial of the remaining eleven. All fled in fear that night ... none stood by your side ... not a one remained beside you in your defense.

I faced them, in the large room, confessing my "sin" before the entire group of friends - I too had been betrayed and condemned. My punishment was to stand before them all and confess. Confession of crimes I did not commit, sins that were not mine. And I did - stand before them all; acquaintances and friends, those I thought of as family and she whom was my best friend - and I asked for forgiveness. And they? ... some fled (fear?), and some walked out the door (anger?), and those closest to me turned their backs to me (shunned). And I? ... slouched and slunk out the door past them, head down and fighting back the bitter angry tears ... and I thought "but I asked for forgiveness."

Lord Jesus, you knew of your denial and were prepared. You gave warning to your closest friend to prepare him for the guilt that he would carry. And you forgave him; when next Peter would look upon you, shame weighing heavy on his countenance, you offered him redemption. Father God, I have not been able to forgive as your Son has; I cannot let go of the hurt caused me and I carry such anger that it separates me from you. Lord Jesus, teach me the way - your way - to a right spirit and a healed body, mind, and soul.