February 14, '10

just words

when things are going well

the day is brighter

the sun feels warmer

the pace quickens and

there is a lightness of step

when things are going well

the day is brighter

when confidence is higher

when a song stirs the air

when a tune leaves the lips and

a smile pauses on each passing face

when things are going well

when confidence is higher

the day can be tackled, conquered

tasks can be quickly completed

self-esteem radiates and

people begin to notice

when things are going well

February 13, '10

Conversation

what is your definition of 'normal', asked he.

being able to feel, experience, and express a full range of emotions without medicated aid, replied she.

he arched a brow, formulating a response.

she burst in, ... like being able to live life without anti-anxiety or greet a new dawn without anti-depressants or stepping out into the daylight and not hiding away from the world.

he smiled. and when do you believe you are not 'normal'?

scrunching her nose she paused. well ... i guess when emotions are too strong; when i'm in a 'storm' and i have to admit there are 'others' to help me live.

acknowledging 'them' makes you not normal, queried he.

if i admit they are then i am crazy, sighed she.

i see, said he.

February 11, '10

"i sought you" i said to god one moonless mid-winter night. "did you feel the longing of my soul?"

"no" was all god said.

"my heart longs for you" i anguished out from the depths of pain. "do you hear the lament of my soul?"

"no" was all god said.

"i will need you, lord" i whispered, spent and broken from my bed. "do you see this wretch worth nothing kneeling low with bent head?"

"ah," god sighed, "at last. now i can lift you gently from despair where your heart will sing and your soul find rest."

LDG5

Wednesday, Lenten Day 13, LDG5-13:

1) snow Snow SNOW!!!

2) no school

3) industrious daughters

4) St. Mark's Youth

5) building columns

LDG5

Tuesday, Lenten Day 12, LDG5-12

1) Old people who are particular

2) lunch with friends

3) two computers for file transfer

4) the ability to say no

5) stories of love and inspiration

LDG5

Monday, Lenten Day 11, LDG5-11

1) tax refunds :D

2) my puppy dog

3) quick and easy microwave lunches

4) lazy days

5) dr. pepper!

contemporary stations - station six, scourged and crowned with thorns

i was but a child.

separated yet a part

isolated but within

bleeding and broken

shredded and torn

at seven i turned to you

you were an adult

separated yet a part

isolated but within

bleeding and broken

shredded and torn

you alone can understand

for you have endured

i was but a child

they told me nothing of you

but i knew you

you were an adult who suffered as i

and you knew me

they tried to keep me from you

"he is not for you" said they

but on that day i cried out for you

from within their midst i sought you

from my pain and in my anguish i shouted

"i believe in you, jesus christ!"

i was but a child

beaten to near death for my outburst

you were an adult

beaten to near death for you silence

through your suffering you know the pain of living in life

through your suffering you understand

you were beaten and left broken and bleeding for me

for the "rest of the world" but ...

... not just the rest of the world ...

for the entire world

your suffering, my deliverance

lord jesus, thank you for your sacrifice - for your suffering, for your enduring such harshness and such pain, ridicule and punishment, torture and defilement. for it is only through your hurt that a hurting world full of hurting people could be reached (that you could reach anybody so injured as i).